i've started my new subject : politics on monday :) the lecture is pretty decent woman named Dr.Hooper.
she has such an unique characteristics and i dunno, she's kinda interesting kind. the way she thinks i mean :) and we wouldn't have exam, rejoice to that! :D but practically the class got reading assignments, and reportings presentation every single day. she said we have to join the discussion to earn 20% credits from total points. but i could care less. i never joined any discussion nor i think im gonna join one. i can't be bothered. no, not because these topics aren't interesting. politics is my forte actually, it's just i can't force myself to enjoy the class when im not.

her classes aren't boring. i do love it. don't get me wrong. she's a nice woman as well. it's just since i started my last year, i've kinda lost my passion in studying. all my grades going down rapidly. yet i don't really give a damn. compared to my 1st and 2nd year, my grades this year ARE JUST THAT BAD. YEAH THAT BAD. period =/ i almost failed a class, and sometimes i didn't feel like showing up in class. ;'( some of my classmates are very nice people, and they're very helpful. i love them :) but i feel like grilling some of them on huge BBQ stall cause they're just irritating. 4 more days and im done with politics. i have 3 classes left before i off to USA to continue the classes there. then im done with my university life. yay to that :)
since i failed my 1st university - psychology, and nope, not going to talk about that. so YAY me. and yet im scared.

i never know how does it feel to go through 'real life' where you have to work, and mingle with the real society where friends can be foe. or vice versa. i always afraid that im not doing good enough. i always try to do my best, i never like it when i make mistakes. i know, living a life where you try to please everybody is not healthy. im trying to get rid of this feeling slowly. it works sometimes. and actually, when i know i don't give a damn about what anyone's thinking, i feel really really good. :) but i can't help it sometimes. LOL.

rant ends here since i gotta sleep :)