okay this is interesting.

today is actually me - thirza's so called confession day! haha. i know it's lame. but we sort of confessed a couple of things we never admitted before. it was fun. lol. really. haha.

to tell you the truth, we're not that close. you can call us classmates or hangout-after-class mate ;P but not to the extend that she's my best-friend-omg-i'm-so-going-to-die-without-her. ROFL.
but strange enough, i feel like i can tell my problems, or just sharing stories ;) i feel comfy to tell my stories, and i think she feels the same way. haha. maybe? LOL. okay it's my homework to find out later.

and todayyy~ at class, Mr.Bryan asked us to choose one of personality disorder to be our topic for the 1st paper. so many personality disorders to choose from! hahaha. and enrique like moved his seat next to thirza cause we kinda asked his help to explain couple of things about the paper. i'm clueless okay? and not to mention i was late! ;'(
then me and enrique chit-chatted over small topic, and me, being me, always appear to be one narcissistic bitch (as usual ahem.)
then suddenly this bitch by nature aka thirza asked me whether i have a small world inside my head, where i made my own charas, planned out my own life, etcetc.

(oh before i forgot, that bitch by nature flashed her boobs to our lecture. ACCIDENTALLY. wakakak! for me it was like maldrobe malFUCKtion, and it seriously FUCKED HER UP. that was funny, when the-too-innocent-girl-until-i-feel-like-choking-her-to-death aka Jen decided to tell the poor bitch about how she showed off her goodies to Mr.Bryan! u shud see her face that time man, IT WAS PRICELESS. lol.)

okay back to topic, at first i sort of don't want to admit it, coz what's on my mind isn't exactly like that, but it's partially true. not quite actually.
and to keep the story short, just in case i bore you to death, we've found out that we got the most precious thing in common! *can't tell you what though. buahahahah.
she also told me how her besties called her freak and told her she needed help. lol. she doesn't need helps, give her what she wants in 'that little world' then voila! the world inside her head will be vanished in a blink of an eye.

okay, to be frank, sometimes, daydreaming/whatever you called it, can be a good comfort when you feel like real life is a bitch. it's a great consolation for your poor brain, and seriously, it gives you an uknown comfort you never know it exists.
it feels great until you can't leave the little world inside your mind. it's not that bad. i love real life very much, but whenever i have a major problem in my life, i always can't help it. that world appears automatically without any command needed.

i still remember vividly, i've been through a major depression because of family. parents divorced, they got remarried, they kept badmouthing each other and the great part is they sort of like brainwashed me to hate dad (mom) or mom (dad)
isn't that great? 8DD and my grandmother who i treasured the most that time passed away, followed by my grandfather. i lost the 2 figures i treasure the most, the one who brought me up, shits like that lol. and my school life wasn't good either. my bestfriends loathed me. family got money issue as well. whoa~ all came together in one go! hahahaha. then doctor told my mother, all my muscles showed sign of depression. at that time seriously, this little world helped me alot to find consolation. where i made my parents still together, no one died, school life was great, similar scenarios like that. it sort of like gateaway from real life (i refused to be called delusional, freak, etc etc LOL!) and it gave me a great comfort! yey XD

so i think since that time, i always can't help it but let this world appears once in a while.

and i found out today, that thirza that bitch also like that. hahahah! isn't it interesting? ;P

i still want to write more, but my muscles ache and im afraid to ruin my nails, so i better stop here.
and dongbang lovin updates coming soon! hehe~ ;)

side notes : I WROTE THIS COUPLE DAYS AGO. LOL.