soooo, my period is coming real soon. but doesn't matter though. i rarely have pre-period mood swings. XD but what's with a sudden mood swings since yesterday T__T

but i've been thinking the thing that i shouldn't think of. =/
it's been 2 years since i moved here. time flies so fast eh? it was fun at the beginning, new places, new people, new culture, but as time goes by, i don't feel like continuing it anymore.
i dunno why, i've been thinking about this since yesterday. but i know i shouldn't. a year left and its all done, i guess i just need to hang in here for a while. ;)

but if i really stop it right now, i dunno what shud i do also. like 2 times got into univ and 2 times fail in the end isn't really a pretty image i want to experience in the future xD it'll make me look like a biggest failure in the family. xPPPP and not to mention im so gonna give mommy a big headache and hard time like last time. haha. *dies*

feel pretty lonely lately, i am lonely though. like something missing. dunno what, guess i need to figure it out later eh? XD

exam on 14th nov, i haven't finished my assignment =/ laziness got the best in me :p i still have like 2 weeks time to complete it, and not to mention i'm completely clueless about what to do, how to do and the additional stuff. aaaaaaaaa. this subject isn't that hard, but the lecture made it harder to learn, since all the time she kept mumbling to herself, and laughed at her jokes. ROFL. not cool~!!!! guess im going to be busy going back to library next week. xP

i feel like calling mommy and cry though. =/ but once she picks up the phone, i'm not going to blurt out the things i wanna say. confirm~!!!! =______=''''' stupid mouth and daughter pride! ;( and i aware of the truth that she doesn't know me that well. (beside the fact that she's completely conscious that i spend a lot of money =___=) can't blame her though, we didn't spend enough time together. and she loves to create the image of the 'real' me everytime we talk. like when i complain about something, she keeps saying that i can do this, i can do that, i'm able to blablabla. in fact, i can't and i need help. its a burden sometimes. i guess that's why i never able to tell everything to her. daddy? daddy is completely out of question. he always mention that i'm no longer a little girl he knows. =_____='''

okay enough of the rant XD i hope this gloomy mood can go away SOON, as soon as i blink my left eye. xDDDDD

P.S : it's raining heavily! ;( afraid of the thunderstorm outside ;(
P.P.S : have a feeling that someone hates me, but can't figure out who. it's a feeling. LOL.
P.P.P.S : going to morning church tomorrow~ afternoon church is fun too, but too many weirdos, can't find peace at all. xP