wtf i cried again.
today supposed to be another happy day for me right?
;_____;

so, apparently, when i went back, i didn't tell my dad at all. cruel huh? but iono. i just didn't want to meet him. meet him only once a year / or twice. ROFL. [same thing goes to mommy okay. only mommy got more portion :p like once in 2/3months? XD]
*dies*
yeah, i prefer to live my life alone ;) eventhough mommy spoils me like a princess xP

okay, i shall stop here. and move on to the real topic.

daddy has been complaining about his sickness [i have no fuckin idea what it is, blame my ignorance please T___T], and he got hospitalized 3days ago. ;___;
my step mother called me this evening, all i could heard was beeping sound. OMG, i dunno how bad his condition is. i thought its just another normal sickness, and he'll be okay in couple of days.

but just now, my auntie texted me, and told me daddy's condition is on serious state.
IM OFFICIALLY FREAKIN OUT OKAY. ;___;
what if something happens? T__T *touchwood* and i feel bad. I FEEL LIKE A SHIT.
daddy texted me last wednesday, right after i landed in singapore. he asked about my condition here, and kept saying i love you. i didn't reply. coz he loves to send i-love-you message to me. [i know he LOVES me TOO MUCH, but he got no proof to that statement. *i sound cruel, i know*]

i just want to admit that i really really couldn't hate him, eventhough i want to. ;____; *bangshead*
and i'm thinking to forget about the past and start a new page with him. since this hospital-news-thingy is kinda freakin me out, and i have a slightly bad feeling about this.
i just hope he's okay though. i'm going to see him later, when i go back indo again later at the end of this month.

Dear Father, please make everything alright. Cause i know You already made a beautiful ending for Your children. Amen.