OMIGOD
I CANNOT STAND THIS GUILTY FEELING ANYMORE!

OMIGOD. GOD, PLEASE FORGIVE ME
T______________T;;;;
I never once be a good daughter for her.
never once.
shud i kill myself then die?
=______='''
in my whole life, i never make her happy, nor i make her feel proud of me.
all i know is troubling her with my childish whining, my egoistic desire, and so on and so on.

i'm so fucked up.
yes, fucked up.

someone told me that im not myself anymore.
yeah, i've been wondering about that problem lately.
i miss my cheerful side, i miss my optimistic side.
T___T;;;

anyway, i did something today.
girl, u will never know what im capable to do with my so called innocenceness. :)
so better stop that ridiculous action, before i really do something horrible to you.
you will never have a slightest clue about what i will do to you.
better late than never.