my life has been pretty sucky these days. ;__;
so many things happened in my family. geez, thats why i decided to runaway from there. i know, my purpose to study in SG isnt for the education. but more for my life. i couldnt stand all the problems. yeah.
again, my father. always him, him and him! geez. i really dun wanna talk about him right now. ok the real problem now is his son. LOL. his son doesnt mean my brother. i'm a golden child, i dun have any siblings. 8D *at least, thats what i think*
my step father always proud of him, yes, and never feel proud of me. and i dun care anyway. u arent my real father, even i ignored my real father since long time ago, coz he did a very big mistake to my mom. and u? who are u? LOL.

he keep saying that his son is handsome. I DUN CARE IF HE;S AS HANDSOME AS BRAD PITT, EVEN AS HANDSOME AS YUNHO. I HATE HIM! NOTE THATTT! I HATE HIM, HIS GRANDMOM AND WHOEVER THAT TRY TO HURT MY MOM U HEARRR MEEEE!!! AND YES, JUST WAIT UNTIL I GRADUATE, I'LL TAKE MY MOM!
and dun worry, i wont forget all good things u did to me. LOL.
yes, ur son is handsome so what?!!!!
he even couldnt write good night properly.
GOOD NIGHT SUPPOSED TO BE GOOD NIGHT. NOT GUT NAITH!
if he;s that handsome, THEN ASK HIM TO BE A MANWHORE BETTER!

and also, my cousin. GAHH I WANT TO HATE HER BUT I CANNOT!
she;s so slutty nowadays. OMG O.O since she got my old cellphone, she took so many semi nude picture, and sent it to her boyfriend. and please note that SHE NEVER MEET HER BOYFRIEND BEFORE! they know each other through online game. i dunno the name, coz i never care. and bcoz of that damn cellphone, she got into a fight with my other cousin! and then my busybody uncle decided to join the fun by adding oil into fire! OMG HOW FUN! I WANT TO JOIN THE FUN TOO! SO I CAN CHOP UR HEAD THEN THROW IT AWAY! gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
but then, my auntie is so wise, she knew the right thing to do. gah ILU auntie <3
this auntie also helped my mom alot. 8D
FAMILY WAR BECAUSE OF A DAMN CELLPHONE! HOW FUN COULD THAT BE HUH?!!!!!
and now, my other cousin is asking for my old bag. i left so many things in indo, and i sort of dun want it anymore, so i told my mom to give all the things to my cousin if they want to. and u know, THIS COUSIN. AGAIN! TRY TO GET ALL THE THINGS. HOW GREEDY. OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!
i cannot say anything, her personality is . . . i dunno the exact word to describe it.
she always think that she;s good, but in fact, SHE'S AS GOOD AS AN ASSHOLE!
*bangshead*
ok, i better take a seat, then waiting for another family war. this time because of stupid clothes and bags.

also, my real father, asked me to go to germany. I ALWAYS REFUSE HIS OFFER. no, i dun want to. he told me, that my grandmom has been asking me to move to germany with her since my elementary school. [she's my grandmom's sister actually. my grandmom alr passed away] no, i want to cut all the tie to ur family dad. no, thanks. and i do believe u know that i hate u, ur damn wife and ur fckin daughter. I KNOW U DO. u just refuse to admit it. so many times i told u that i dun like ur wife. dun feed me with ur bullshit, u always love me. of couz! im ur daughter after all. but sadly, i'm no longer love u. yes, i LOVED u. but that time, i was blind. I WAS BLIND I TOLD U!
i dunno, everytime i hear my mom and my dad's stories, i always hear the different story. so now, HOW CAN I BELIEVE ALL OF U IF U KEEP DOING THIS THING TO ME?!!!
HOW CAN?! yes i'm stupid enuff, i keep hoping that the two of u can reunite as husband and wife again. but yes, that hope alr faded away since my dad got married again. but i still hold the faith until now. how pathetic i am. ;______;

i miss both of my grandmoms. only them that can love me without any conspiracy.
i miss the time when i was still in elementary school, my grandmom always sit on the front door, waiting for my return. and my other grandmom, will hug me whenever she sees me. i love being their fave grandchildren. i wish i could turn back the time.

i really want to tell someone. i need to talk to someone, but i cannot. i cannot. i cannot. so thats why, i always keep those things to myself only. yes, i become very introvert right now. even i cannot any single thing to my bestfriend. i just cannot. ;____;
fortunately, i have this blog xDxDxDxD

and, i miss my mom. ;___; i never tell her my secret, i never tell her anything. i dont have any kind of close relationship with her. she;s too busy and i understand that. i wish i could understand. u know, a day before i moved here. thats the 1st time i cried so hard, and hugger her very thigtly, and she cried also, she patted my back and told me everything would be okay, she will handle all things in here. i just need to live a happy life in here.

gosh, my tears keep falling.